The Wednesday Word April 22,2015
Press Through The Crowd
It seems like these days people are becoming more and more equipped with following their God given dreams. Or there is a deeper desire to follow a vision or a dream. Either way…. there is a spiritual awakening happening all across the globe for many who desire to fulfill a higher purpose.
Here has been the biggest challenge though….. there is a weak link keeping one from their greatest selves.
It’s something you are becoming aware of and it is TIME to annihilate this wall!
This weak link is so emotional, deep and painful, that if everyone truly knew what was going on….. it may make you feel a bit embarassed. Liked you’ve royally screwed up and want a do-over. Or it may even be that you just don’t feel the need to expose this weak side. Is it necessary for people to know everything?
Yes…… for those who have this desire to fulfill a ‘higher calling’ know that they will be exposed in the process.
It can make one feel naked, uncomfortable and even a bit insecure.
Look….. for me??…. I can speak from many perspectives about feeling insecure.
It was 5 years ago that I dedicated my heart to The Lord…. and yes…. I was definitely a HOT potato. There is no inbetween for someone like me. I was either going to follow God or not. However…. I have faced numerous battles that have made me question my skill sets, question my authority in the spirit, and question whether or not I can do a great work for God.
Some days I’ve felt awesome and totally worthy….. and other days I have felt so weiry that it’s driven me into various bouts of depression.
It’s been a challenge my entire life that I’ve struggled with for a very long time.
But now that I’ve become aware of this, I can stop it in it’s track.
Even before following Jesuscame into my heart, I would question levels of success. It’s like I would reach certain levels, have radical breakthrough and then want to crawl back into a hole taking 50 steps back. It would soooo tick me off!
I’ll never forget when I was competing in a figure competition getting ready for Nationals. It was my first National stage, and I had been competing that entire year to prepare for this ONE show. Getting great feedback from judges and my trainer was really excited for all of my progress.
One day I was working out with a bunch of competitors training shoulders, and out of nowhere I began to cry. Like I began to cry uncontrollably and I couldn’t figure out the problem. As I’m crying…. I’m thinking… “girl…. why are you crying?”
My trainer asked me if I was ok and if I needed anything.
Other competitors said they were praying for me.
I’m thinking to myself…. Why the HECK am I crying?
Here I am almost 9 years later and I finally know the answer more clearly.
I was reaching a higher level of success……
Getting lots of attention, a lot of great energy, and couldn’t of felt any better about myself. Especially in an industry I was very new to at the time.
All that success was bigger than me at that time in my life.
Yet there I was…. exposed in my bikini every single day.
Now some may say that this is self sabotage…. and yes…. it is a form of self sabatage.
But it’s also mindset.
A mindset that needed to be stopped.
You see… I was having tremendous success on stage, winning numerous shows or placing very high….and then when I got to a National stage…. I began to take steps back emotionally, physically and mentally.
Not only did I need a break…. I needed some serious mentorship to develop a new mindset.
Had no idea that you could reach certain levels in life, then start having emotional breakdowns or getting horribly sick out of the blue.
There are many leaders in the marketplace who talk about this….. one being Marie Forleo (who is extremly talented, beautiful and so funny!) she discussed this on her blog post a couple weeks back:
She talked about a book called “The Big Leap” by Gay Hendricks, which I have NOT read yet but definitely on the list.
Now I believe that we all are at certain points in our life where we have reached certain limits. And it takes personal growth in order to breakthrough to the next level…. so we can HANDLE the next level.
And I’m not just talking about the next level in our career, I’m also talking about next levels with our health, our finances, our marriage, our parenting, our relationships or even living out a dream. When we start growing, the enemy has a way of pushing back, trying to keep us from getting to places God wants us to grow …. THIS is where you gotta fight!
Often times we chase more money, growing our business or get something we want… when in reality… in order to get these things we must become that person to maintain it successfully.
For example: In 2012 I negotiated one of the biggest contracts of my career. It was 7 figures! Huge for me. But what happened right after I negotiated the contract? I came down with the flu for the first time in my life, had a fever of 104 degrees and hallucinated for several nights in my sleep. This lasted for over 30 days.
Keep in mind I have never had the flu before in my life, so I had no idea what was happening to me until someone said, Girl you have the flu.
The lying voice of self-sabotage came right in and began to steal all the hardwork on myself. And you know what? I gave it permission.
That contract lastest 9 months and it was the worst and best 9 months of my life. However… I grew light years in the process. And keep in mind…if I wasn’t ready for a project like this, then the opportunity wouldn’t have presented itself.
Opportunities come at times when we think we are not ready, but when we say YES…. this is how you learn to step into higher levels of your calling. OTJT…..On The Job Training 😉 It’s the greatest way to learn!
Although after that prject…. I never wanted to come back to the marketplace again.
But….. there goes this desire in me again. That deep burning FIRE that won’t let me quit until I go home to our Papa in heaven.
You see…. there are always going to be levels, noise, crowds, frustrations, limits, liabilities, people dealing with their junk too… around you,…… and a host of challenges we will face when rising to the top.
You will have to learn how to motivate yourself when you are down AND you will have to learn how to Press Through The Crowd even when you have a 104 fever or getting ready to step on a stage.
There are so many distractions out there! When you can’t hear the one true voice, you’ll have a hard time trying to get clear on a plan.
So today challenge yourself to find a quiet place and start writing out a plan that will produce results in your life.
When was the last time you just sat, listened, and waited on God to lead you?
Now some of you may be listening to God, worshiping or taking steps to find your higher purpose, but yet you are still frustrated with everything you are facing.
Or maybe you are working your butt off to make things happen in your life, but things still aren’t the way you desire them.
Or maybe some area’s of your life are working and other area’s look like a Tsumani.
Look….. when you are trying to follow His voice, you gotta do just like the woman in the bible.
43 And there was a woman who had had a discharge of blood for twelve years, and though she had spent all her living on physicians, she could not be healed by anyone. 44 She came up behind him and touched the fringe of his garment, and immediately her discharge of blood ceased. 45 And Jesus said, “Who was it that touched me?” When all denied it, Peter said, “Master, the crowds surround you and are pressing in on you!”46 But Jesus said, “Someone touched me, for I perceive that power has gone out from me.” 47 And when the woman saw that she was not hidden, she came trembling, and falling down before him declared in the presence of all the people why she had touched him, and how she had been immediately healed. 48 And he said to her, “Daughter, your faith has made you well; go in peace.”
You see…. we must Press Through The Crowd just like this woman and follow what we know to be true in our hearts to do. Or ask Jesus for surpernatural healing in area’s we have lost control.
If you too have a desire to build your own platform, speak on stages, heal the sick, give to the poor, make a lot of money, travel the world, experience a life of freedom all while maintaining harmony in your home AND live this life giving everything you got…… then you MUST pick up your mat and GO!
It doesn’t matter what everyone else is doing or where they are going… what matters is your VISION, your PURPOSE and your God given BIRTHRIGHT.
You are your own best gift to the world, and when you are growing….. you can help others grow.
Who cares that you are struggling with something right now. We all are struggling with something. Focus on what you can do in this moment.
The places where you have the biggest challenges…. are the places you have the most to give.
You gotta love yourself right where you are and ACCEPT that you are human. You are not perfect.
You gotta love yourself just so you can love others!
Your marriage might be screwed up or kids might be out of whack. You might be someone who struggles with spiritual bipolar at times… but listen to me…. when you have a DESIRE so deep in your heart to do…. you gotta listen to that voice!
Cause it’s that voice which can make you free and your family free if you keep seeking to product healthy fruit.
Follow your mandate.
Your mandate is your official order or commission to do something while here on earth!
You are gonna have to Press Through The Crowd, grab a hold of Jesus’s robe, reach with faith and make a move!
You might be asking…. How do I know what I’m called to do?
Well first off… you are breathing….. second I’m going to encourage you to open up your bible to Genesis and start reading.
Next I’m going to ask you a series of questions.
What are you passionate about?
What wakes you up in the morning?
What are your natural instincts to do daily outside of housework?
What do you read?
What websites do you go to often online?
What are your favorite things to do?
What makes you angry that you would like to change in the world?
Where do you hangout?
Now these are just some questions to get your juices flowing.
Cause when you begin to take the time and answer, you will begin to see how God wired and designed you.
And when you are truly focused on your mandate, all your other challenges will seem so small.
They may still be there, but they will be minor compared to all the awesome things God wants you focused on.
Does this mean you put everyone last and just focus on yourself?
No…. it means you gotta focus on feeding yourself that will produce growth, so you can be more present with those who are closest to you.
If you are struggling with giving anyone your undivided attention, then it’s a sure sign you have neglected feeding your spirit.
Even Jesus said it himself:
So the disciples were saying to one another, No one brought Jesus anything to eat. Jesus said to them, “My food is to do the will of my Father who sent me to accomplish His work” ~John 4:33-34
Jesus was never worried about food, clothes, money or his relationships… His food was to do God’s will and THAT is what fed him. He let God take care of what he couldn’t control and just focused on the mission.
When your spirtual life is in order, you will become way more effective in every other area of your life.
So today I encourage you to feed yourself spiritually. And if you feel you are feeding yourself spiritually, then start putting together a plan to move you forward.
Focus on the area’s you produce the best positive results in your life….. and learn how to deal with the obstacles along the way.
Ever heard, Change your focus, change your life?
Cause the truth is…. often times the obstacles don’t go away until we learn how to shift our focus and DEAL with them first.
In order to win, conquer self sabotage, and quantum to the next level, is when we face our struggles full on.
It can suck, and even send you into pity parties… but it is those who RISE above the circumstances who succeed.
It’s those who begin to partner with God and His spirit, & start asking what you can do to breakthrough this barrier ……not crawl into a hole and ignore what you must confront.
Press Through The Crowd.
Who cares if other people are doing things ‘better’ than you. (so you think)
Who cares that someone has a better marriage, more money or do business better than you.
Who friggin cares!
YOU are what matters!
It’s YOU that needs to get better!
And it’s YOU that is CALLED!
You are wired for PURPOSE and only your gifts will do what they are set out to do.
Only you have certain gifts that can change the world.
And only YOU can become everything you are called to become, if you Press Through The Crowd.
You Can, You Will & You Must!
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Never know who needs a word of encouragement today 🙂
p.s. Need mentorship in your life, finances or business?